Wheeeeee

Yesterday was a horrible day

one of my favorite client called me

telling me she has cancer

I was really upset

I started hated god

I questioned life

I suddenly lost track

I lost purpose of living

I told myself not to work so hard

I keep asking myself why

After doing the things I have to do

I went back home

I look at my parents my siblings my dogs

I didn't have mood to do anything

I laid on bed playing online game

then I slept

Today is another day

I put on that stupid smile

acting cool like nothing happen

started work like a robot

and I went back to my client's place again

She thanked me!

She said at least she doesn't need to worry about medical fee

She said I m her savior

I nearly cried in front of her

O.o

I know I m lame

I m not as strong as what I have projected

I m not as cool as what people thinks

but I know I m good in pretending

Yesterday already past

past is past is past

and f the stupid uncertain in life

I swear I will never ever against my thoughts

and I will do whatever I feel like doing

Living in the moment

and always be happy.